Pausing

Recently due to an injury my life was turned upside down and everything I normally take for granted on a daily basis was now not in my control. And honestly, I didn’t quite know what to do to deal with it. And those that know me knows I don’t normally sit still very long. And patience is not a strong suit of mine either.

It’s real easy in times of struggle to become angry or become upset and question  what are the reasons behind it. Why me? Why now? Why?Why? Why? But the answer came to me that maybe I don’t know the reasons or the answers. Maybe I’m not supposed to either.But the doubt did creep in in the weaker moments. But in those moments I also found strength.

This is a time for pausing in my life. It is what is designed for me at this time.

The picture isn’t ready yet

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Growing up my parents took pictures and had a few different cameras over the years. Being that I was a child of the 1970’s, a popular camera was called a Polaroid. Or Instamatic which I’m not sure was a nickname for it or a actual brand name. It had special film and after taking the picture, the image would appear on the film after a few minutes.

I was often so excited to see this picture I would try different techniques to speed this process up like putting it near light, shaking the picture, or just walking around with it convinced I could make a difference. 

My parents would often say,” Put it down. The picture isn’t ready yet.”

As a adult, I try mostly unsuccessful to speed up or facilitate the process of developing my personal picture of life. Like the childhood techniques with the Polaroid, they don’t work, are time consuming, and I end up exhausted from the effort.

My lesson in the faith dare study is that you can’t get the picture God has for your life any faster than when it is exactly ready to develop. Asking for something, trying to rush it or force it doesn’t bring it on any faster. 

It’s all about knowing that God knows us perfectly and has the total picture and it will be revealed to us in his time.

Things undone

As the writer in me and new to blogging, I realized I left you hanging.

Without my stuff, I would not be emotionally or spiritually where I am today. I’m blessed by God and the amazing people who I have met along the way.

So James not yet on joy but happy is a very big step along the way.

James had it right but my human faith was lacking

I read the Beth Moore study about 1 year ago on my own after I didn’t feel equipped to tackle it with the church group being somewhat new to Bible study . In James 1:2 NIV it says “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds.”

Honestly, I was thinking James was a little crazy. Joy in trials how could this be even possible. Analyzing my events, that was going to be a impossible feat. Had I seen in others on a TV program or in headlines. People whose personal set of circumstances was far worse than mine of course. But me, never thought it would happen.

But that’s what I discovered today on this very early morning on a family getaway when up early for other reasons,I was relying on my understanding.

Up this early morning on a family getaway for a complete different reason perhaps to finally get what this passage was referring to.

It was referring to faith which I was lacking that day. Doing a new study called The Faith Dare, this came full circle. I was relying on my understanding not God’s.

I’m not feeling the joy yet but definitely getting the perspective a bit clearer. One thing, however I know deep in my heart is without that stuff

Consider it a s…

Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open ans shows its true Colorado. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well developed, not deficient in any way.

James 1:2-4 Message

Don’t open your…

Don’t open your mouth unless you have something nice to say

I heard that and many other things growing up from my mother. I fully agree with that. Words can be painful at times but once said can’t be changed. Then the whole part of asking for forgiveness comes in which can be hard and take many people years. It’s much easier to think what you want to say before speaking. Yes my mother was right and I thank her for that great lesson which I can admit I have to struggle to follow at times. 

Just me- A work in progress

A journey of a mom of three in discovering herself and growing in faith.